Neko

I know there are lots more people out there with more problems or more things on there plates. My hat is off to them. With the holiday running around and my daily life I am just beat. Mentally, physically-stick a fork in me cause I am done. Everytime I think I am close to done with shopping, something else pops up. It never ends...Christmas spirit bah hum bug.
Then the food thing is throwing me for a loop. Funny last week I gained .5 but I took the lead in NS Blogger challenge. This week the numbers aren't in yet, but I think I might still be in the lead. I had a 3.5 lb loss. Note to self, send Bob and Edith a basket of Godiva. I am sure over the next two weeks they will beat me hands down. I have been doing lots of kids treat bags, and baking...one kiss for the treat bags, one for me...that kinda thing. Tomorrow I am making cookies. Good Lord it never ends.
On the homefront, Jackie has a new boyfriend. Yippee for her. He seems nice enough. Not to sure as we met him for all of 5 minutes. We have had her invite him to come over twice both times he made up a lame excuse. So from the parental point of view, we are not to thrilled. Sends up all kinds of red flags. Plus, although I am not old fashioned in lots of ways, I still believe that a guy should pick up his date. No, not him, he had her drive out to his house so they can hang out. Sucks for her cause she came in late and had her curfew bumped down an hour again. She has also been blowing off school again. Poor kid can't manage school and a social life at the same time. Something always gives. She has been doing so great too. Managed to get a 92 GPA this semester. We have a deal with her that she has to maintain a 85 or better GPA in order for us to pay for her to go to one of the better colleges. She also has been so "whatever" about getting her college portfolios and additional stuff ready. She got something in the mail last Thursday, Barry asked her what was it on Sunday, she is like"I never even looked at it". Well, to say the very least he was so pissed off at her. I don't blame him. The schools she has chosen over the course of 4 years will set us back approx. 125K. So figuring that will put us in debt for the next 10 years. All for someone who could care less. The holidays always make me a tad bit depressed. I miss my dad something fierce. He loved Christmas, and having the family together. It was his favorite time of year. Dam guy would always have the biggest smile on his face from Thanksgiving to New Years...sick I tell ya. Plus, I have been having dreams about my first husband again. Even after 10 years it is still always the same kinda thing..the dreams are always different but the gest of it turns out to be, that I always still think he is alive. I guess it is true what they say about needing to see a body to have closure. I wish my family would have let me identify him at the morgue. But hell then the nightmare could have been much worse. Who knows certainly not me.
Anyway I am just about sitting on the ledge.