Neko

Hi guys. Sorry I haven't posted in a long while. Things here have just been crazy hectic. Yeah, yeah, yeah I know that's no excuse but it has. To start things off Jac got excepted so far to University of the Arts in Philly, and to Fashion Institute of Design in NYC. She didn't get into MassArt, and is waiting to here from School of Visual Arts. She did however, decide on UARTS and mailed her completed enrollment for in today. Whoo fucking hoo, they also gave her a artist grant of $9K per year. So that is like getting a free year. I am so proud of her. Jealous too but mostly proud ;) Today is my baby's birthday. He turned 4. Growing up so fast. He is lucky he is cute or he won't make 5! LOL The lst few weeks I have engrossed myself in all the tricky tray work. It will be like this non stop now til after April 1st. I can't wait for it to be all over. I keep have dreams that it is the morning of and I haven't wrapped a single basket. God help me!!! I had a Creative Memories show on Sunday and sold over $500 worth of products. It was a good day. I also went and saw a psychic last week. It was such a surreal experience. She told me that by the end of the year we will be ok financially. That was a pleasure to hear. I can't see how but who am I to argue. She told me that Tommy(my first husband) never leaves my side. She also mentioned he was happy to see I was wearing his ring. I had put on a ring he bought me, that had been gathering dust in my jewelry box. How weird was that. She told me my dad was happy I was wearing his ring too. Of course I was as well. So funny. She also wanted to know who Rob was. I told her he was my highschool sweetheart. She said it was weird she was picking up on him. I said well I drove past his house on the way here. So that was weird too.... As for the world of NS I am outta control. I have been on and off the last month. I finally had hit wonderland only to blow it the following week. My focus has been gone. I need to find it really soon too. I don't want to go back into the larger size pants I just put away. Guys help me!!!!!!PLEASE...LOL

Oh well, as you can see by my post that I enjoyed my time in Philly. We left the house around 6:00 am to go over to starbucks to get our morning coffee for the long ride. Damn, place was closed. We waited for 15 minutes then decided to drive to another one which was about 5 minutes away. We get there , and low and behold there is a note on the door saying they would be closed until 9:00...morning wasn't starting out so hot. After we got on the turnpike we did stop about an hour later...thank god cause I need my coffee. The trip went pretty smooth and we got into Philly around 8 with about an hour and a half to kill. So we went to the starbucks right across from UARTS. Now I was starving and didn't bring any food with me. So what did I have..Did I opt for the lowfat stuff...Hell no I had a pumpkin cream cheese muffin. It really wasn't to good and I didn't eat the whole thing. Jac's interview went well, so she thought. She felt really confident, which is a good thing. Hopefully she will get in. It will gave us a reason to go to philly more. After we left the school we went to the Liberty Bell. We haven't been sightseeing in Philly for a few years so we were shocked with all the security. After touring the bell, we decided to go for a horse and buggy ride. It was getting grey so we wanted to do it before the rain hit. It was a great ride but it did start raining while we in the buggy, thankfully there is a canopy and we had a nice blanket keeping us all warm. Next it was off to Betsy Ross's house. I just love this place. After that it was off to Cosmi's Deli for some cheesesteak. We almost had to go around the block to Geno's as there was no place to park, but after circling a few times we found a good spot. Now Cosmi's in my opinion is the best place for cheesesteak, it is off the beaten path, and if you didn't know about it, would pass it by. But oh my god is their food great. Needless to say I went with the intentions of splitting my steak with Barry. However, once inside Barry said no way. LOL. So do you think I ate just half of mine. No freakin way. I stuffed myself to the point of no return. I thought I would blow I was so stuffed. After gorging ourselves, it was off for some more sightseeing. After that we went over to Cherry Hill, NJ to shop, then back home. Then I ate some more...OHH Boy..onderland was a nice place to visit. On Sunday I woke up with a horrible feeling and I turned to Barry and said "have you seen Poot?" He said no but he would look for him. We searched high and low and that damn cat was no where to be found. I was heartbroken. I figured he had slipped out on Sat. morning while we were all half asleep. That meant that my deaf, delclawed,17 year old cat was out all day and night in the cold rain. My poor heart was broken. I had to take Joey to a birthday party so I didn't have time to sulk. As soon as I got home I made up flyers and posted them around the neighborhood. By the time we got back in from putting up the flyers we had already gotten a call that someone had found him. They knew he was a house cat and kept him in their basement. Said they found him in the morning barely standing. My poor baby. I cried like a baby at the sight of him. However, after all the love he has gotten over the past day, I think he might try to run away again. I went out last night and bought some stuff to bring over to the very nice people. Barry thinks I am nuts, but after all they took care of my baby. Back to the eating party I had been having. I was good all day then last night when I got home from the store, Barry was looking for some treats. I really wanted some too. So back in my car to head off to Starbucks. I got us both the toffee nut bar. Ohh so good and about a million calories. Then before bed, a bowl of cookie crisp. What is wrong with me??? I gotta be outta my freakin mind. DId anyone notice how much Starbucks I had in the last few days. Guess you can tell my New Years resolutions aren't going to well. Oh well today we start fresh again....

Whoo freakin hoo!!!! I finally made it. I was having a good few days so I figured what the hell, lets jump on the scale this morning...and what do my wondering eyes see???? 198.5 looking back at me!!!!!!! I have to tell you it feels so good. Just puts me back on track. I mean I know Saturday I will not be perfect. We are going to Philly and you just gotta have a cheesesteak...it's the law...LOL However, I am sure with all the walking we will do it will keep the weight gain to a minimum. So I am happy to say I feel excited again. As far as stuff at home things are ok. Once again I say not perfect but not bad. I pretty much spend all my days working on the tricky tray or busing the kids around to playdates, school and karate. It's all good. At night Barry and I have gotten into our heavy tv schedule Sun-Weds. We have been doing ok. I still think something is off but I can't figure it out. I did have a tricky tray meeting the other night and he was much more helpful with the boys then he has been. He is trying and I give him credit. I had another Creative Memories show on Friday. It went ok, but the sales were a bit low. I just don't know how all these people make a lot of money with it. Most of the women that attend the shows are stay at home moms on very limited income. I gotta find rich friends.

Hi all!!! Guess I have not been around lately. So sorry. Things around here are pretty much the same. Still struggling with keeping on track. I came so close to onderland and then blew it over the weekend and gained a pound. So I am at 201...Urgggg. We spent a wonderful day in the city on Sat. Jac had her portfolio review at Fashion institute of Design. So we took the boys to Washington Square Park where they have the most wonderful kids park. The place is surrounded by an 8 foot fence with only one entrance that locks. Barry and I always sit by the gate (just in case) . The boys love it there and they get to meet all different kinds of people. The weather was beautiful, it was just a nice relaxing day. Anyway, we stayed a bit longer in the city and didn't get back to our neighborhood till almost 5. Now we had not eaten anything since 9:30 so we were quite hungry. Barry said...Let's go get soup and salad at olive garden...Sounded good...Ohh No....We ordered brucetta..so yummy..and I had the salad with those terrific breadsticks, and pasta...Barry did have the soup and the salad but let me tell you so not even close to being on program. However, it was a great day..so what's a few more pounds. :) Then on Monday my period(sorry Bob) cravings kicked in about 20 notches. I ate everything in site. Really anything that was food went right into my mouth. Good lord I am probably up to about 205 again. So as you see I still sit here struggling. I seem to have lost my "niche". I so have to find it. I was doing really great. Getting lots of compliments and I actually fit into a smaller size jeans. However, after another few days of this no more smaller jeans. Why does this have to be so hard?

Hi all. Not much going on these days. Last night I had another scapping workshop, only one person showed up. It was ok though cause I got lots of stuff done. Only bad point of the night...when I have people over to scrap, they come to relax and get away from their families. This is my job. Barry is suppose to watch the boys upstairs out of sight. However, he has yet to do this correctly. The kids are only allowed downstairs to say hello and then that is it. Well, he gave them a bath, then told them to clean there rooms. He went into our bedroom shut the door and played guitar. 3 times my little one came downstairs. Then a bit later he put a movie on for them to watch. I went upstairs to bring him a cup of tea..the kids wanted stuff to drink, and eat. Does he take care of it....no I have to and they follow me downstairs. Then while watching tv he falls asleep, so down they come 4 more times to get more cookies and just check out what is going on. Thank god the lady that was here didn't mind. He is so supportive until he has to do something. I mentioned it to him and he said they never came down. I am so glad he was watching them...
Today he is off to NY to take his voice over lesson. I am so happy that he has found something that interests him and that can make a few extra bucks on the side. Only downside is that once again I am alone taking care of the kids. He is going to take the classes on Sat.'s for awhile when he has the time. However, cause of the distance it means he will be gone pretty much all day. Today he left at noon and probably wont be back until after 6:00pm. I am just lucky that Frankie is over his friends house and Joey loves having alone time playing with Frankie's toys..shhhh don't tell Frankie.
So today I am catching up on Tricky Tray work. Damn sometimes this is worse then a full time job. The pay sucks even worse then housewife/mother. In some ways it is just what the doctor ordered, as I get to use my mind and my office/people skills. On that note I have about another hours worth, so I better get my fat ass in gear.

Hmm let's see is is 18 days after the blogger challenge. So how am I doing? I was doing great till around Jan 3rd, then I started to struggle. Even with struggling I have managed to maintain my loss. Last week was really bad as I felt I was always hungry and somewhat deprived. So weird as I got through the holidays with a breeze, and now I am struggling. I put my mind to it and started really fresh as of Monday. So far so good. I have not eaten anything off plan, not even a bite. So hopefully the scale will start moving down some. I have also decided on what my next mini goal will be. That is after I hit my holiday goal of 200lbs. That is approx 3 more pounds to go. I did start to exercise. Billy Blanks boot camp...My god I thought I would die, and I only made it through 22 minutes of the 55 minute tape. Today I am shooting for 30 minutes, but I am sick so I am not sure if that will happen.
As for things at home. They are ok. Not great, not horrible. Sort of in the middle. Barry has started going back to some of his old ways. Falling asleep while we watch tv together. Now don't get me wrong, if he is tired he should sleep. However, go to bed. Then when I get to bed, don't think it's ok to have sex. If you can't stay awake to spend some time with me, then you shouldn't be able to stay awake to have sex with me. It just brings my sex drive all the way down. So as you can guess I am back with struggling with that again. Barry and I also talked about me going back into therapy for my depression. However, at this point I don't think we could afford it. But I will check with my insurance and see if we are covered. Then see if I can find the time.
As for now I need to take some medicine, drink my tea and lay down.

Hi all!! Like the new look to my blog. For winning the NS blogger challenge Edith designed my blog for me. How cool is she....It looks great!!! Edith, I can't thank you enough. You rock :)